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Posted on Monday 26 October 2009 at 11:53 am

Working on the Stress

I thought I should let y'all know that I'm doing much better today that I was this time last week. I'm not really sure why, though. Everything that was freaking me out last week and that caused me to have the breakdown is still true and I'm basically in the same place I was then. I'm just not freaking out about it. I think everyone who said maybe I just needed to get the emotions out and vent a bit was right.

I have a meeting with my advisor today. Well, I sort of have a meeting. When I asked him about a meeting he told me when his office hours are and said to drop by. One of his weekly office hours is later today. There is a part of me that wants to put it off and not go in today, but there is no reason to put it off and I just discovered a pretty schnazzy grant, the application for which is due Nov. 13 and I need to talk to the advisor about it so I can't wait or I'll run out of time to get the application done by the due date. I don't think I'm ready to meet with my advisor so the plan was to spend today prepping specifically for the meeting. The problem is when I sit down to do that I can't think of anything I actually need to do to prep, which makes me think we're back to everything just being me freaking out and I'm better off than I think I am, but I'm really not sure.

On a completely different topic, I posted a video on Saturday of pics with narration of the first three days of the Germany trip. Since absolutely no one has commented on that post, I'm wondering if perhaps people had busy weekends and missed it so here's the link to the post in case you didn't catch it the first time around. I don't want to seem like I'm begging for comments or anything so if you don't have time to watch the video or aren't interested or just don't want to comment or whatever, please don't feel like I'm trying to guilt you into it or be passive-aggressive about it or whatever. I was just surprised that no one commented and figured for sure at least one person would have had something to say about it, even if just to make fun of me pronouncing German words with my Texas drawl. :)


train_lindz at 5:05 pm on 26 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
There are Germany pictures!? Most exciting - will be clicking momentarily :)

Good luck with your advisor and venting always helps :)
bratty_jedi at 6:38 pm on 26 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
Venting is definitely good.
What's Taters, Precious?
mrstater at 6:51 pm on 26 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
Hey, I'm glad your outlook has improved, and I hope your advisor is helpful.

I'm one of the ones who had a busy weekend and haven't had a chance to look at your Germany video. We went to our college homecoming and were wiped out yesterday. But hopefully I'll get a chance soon! I know German with Rachael will be lots of fun. :)
bratty_jedi at 9:54 pm on 26 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
The meeting with the advisor went well. He gave me some good advice and now I've got a plan of action which is always helpful.

I hope you had fun at homecoming. I've never gone to one. I figure I never went to the games while I was a student so why go back to go to one? This weekend was homecoming here at William and Mary. I went bowling and out for pizza with some of my friends.
What's Taters, Precious?
mrstater at 10:18 pm on 26 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
Glad your meeting was a success!

LOL - I went to half of a game as an undergrad. And after watching Baylor get crushed, I do think our $80 could have been better spent...But we just wanted to get down there for the ambiance of Baylor in the fall. There's just something about it...
bratty_jedi at 1:17 pm on 27 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
I'd go back to San Antonio in a heartbeat so I can understand using homecoming as an excuse to revisit the area even without interest in the game. My undergrad didn't have a football team (they are currently in the process of creating one) so homecoming was always a basketball game in February.
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bratty_jedi at 9:51 pm on 26 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
It's all good. I had a meltdown last Monday because I just got overwhelmed with stress but I've been doing fine since. I hope everything works out with your work stuff.
Wild Magelet
wildmagelet at 7:10 am on 27 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
I tend to avoid meeting with my supervisors whenever possible and I do the same thing, actually, stressing over materials to prepare specifically for that meeting, and it usually ends up as a complete anticlimax, with my having spent ages doing extra work that I didn't really need to worry about. Honestly, you seem to be a far more on-the-ball person than me generally, and I'm sure you are better prepared than you think.
bratty_jedi at 1:21 pm on 27 October 2009 (UTC) (Link)
The meeting was fine so I guess I was better prepared that I thought. I think my problem is that I'm usually stressing about the big picture (OMG! Dissertation!!!) but whenever I go to meet with my advisor I need to talk about specifics and I don't have too many problems there. I suppose the moral of the story would be that I should focus on the small pieces and working on each individual piece and that will take care of the big picture (journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step and all that), but knowing that is what I should probably do and actually being able to do it are two completely different things.

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